Rushing into ...matters

I have been rushing into things from my adulthood. Phases of life that came as consequences were good and very good . Life was sprawling me sparkling opportunities and merry went around all the time :) . I was serious with roll with time theory....when it ticks sour, change ur role...where it ticks temptation...just roll over there ...and had approx 70% hit ratio .But the ratio kept detriorating,day by day ...month by month. I remember one fate-less night I approached every single female in a mall in pune to join me to Jazz By the Bay ...I guess the occasion was Valentines and stags were strictly prohibited. I also wondered does it make one nincompoop if he wasnt able to find a suitable gal for himself .Time and again similar fate were collided with me head on but I faced all very smilingly .

And then I realized, I have bcome mature I was 26 then, my friends were getting married and some were even sending cards for baby shower . I thought for a change I shall not rush into things anymore.I had screwed some half a million things already in past and now is the time to think and rationlize quanity, quality and demand:) ..no i meant the right choice for the long write up of life . I kept judging the parameters and parameters were factors to deal with me in the best possible way. I wasnt fussy to throw tantrum now and then... just that I was picky ...picky for the one . I undoubtedly had 3 amazing short rides to expose the delicate fringes and intricacies of the longer one. My heart wanted to permeate the imaginary impediment I had set forth and my mind wanted a peace ...to go on its own pace.

For the first time in life I let mind win to rule me and carry further my extremely experienced life ... And I collapsed. I always wanted to do 'Rehna hai tere dil mein ' and I was just moving good with the pace...had the most beautiful thing captivated my attention at a wedding with her rosy cheeks and toxic moves ...moving very slowly all composed and calm.. infact only moving when life itself made some budge , didn't screw anything ...nothing stupid, I had my admiration very very clear to this point but havent made it intense passion yet ...this was one imp among other things I had learnt in past ...lot strings were attached and my mess could have pulled all down...but I rested for another fateful evening ...and another and another ...and when Phyan was about to hit Bombay and the most romantic breeze was hugging me in pune ...pat came a call saying sorry pal...prepare for one more fall ..unfortunately this was the one doll ..I longed to ball :) !!!

My very own ....cheezy ...Pick up lines

Kanu inspired to come up with this one ... to blog my favorite pick up lines I use in day to day life to impress gals . But I would like to tell you all that these lines when I say.... I dont intend to say it all just like that ...but ,I do mean when I state them.

+ "No wonder why I am single yet " . To all the gals till date :)

+ "Wouldn't it be interesting if .... I father your dreams " . To Kimi , on her orkut custom tag

+ "Your eyes say all the ans I need... except your phone number ". To Nandini, Goa

+ "You seem to be as hot and soft as molten wax drippin down the candle " . To Neha, after shower.

+ "Hi mam,you seem to own major stakes in http://www.worldmostbeautifulgal.com/ . I would like to invest my time money and emotions in your company as a partner . Let me know if this entices you.You can go through my portfolio at orkut or facebook . We can mutually benefit emotional and pleasure crisis " . Yet looking someone worth to text this .

..to be continued till I get married :)

The faster you hit pot holes... the smoother it feels

Beleagured with intangible intricacies of blooming love hate relationships in depth and in volumes for few years I have procured a recipe from culinary base of my cranium and its working on and off , sometimes for me sometimes for rest of my x-world :) 

Overtly, my first fling that dates back to 2002 was a serious  one and I have been devastated by deliquescence it was subjected to and I hated it . I fell ill/ill fated/into illusion  . Yeah I was naive from these play games . It was a fate and I wasn't cribbing . Infact the kid in me had declared a serious warfare against my fate which I cherish now that went well for the girl which proves latter in my opening line .

I underwent drinking in dark , my favorite phrase but the worst phase which I relate to now . Did not witness any sunrise, did not had a heart to see sunshine and did not bother to see sunset . The best of pinkish sun set shine I missed purposely . I was broken and wanted to get better by my own. I wanted to break free from the protocols of this world and go back to time where there weren't society weathered callous graves which I need to pay homage to .Drinking I don't necessary relate to boozing but something one tends to fall back upon when traumatized . I can call talking to Kan/Nod/Abhi/Adi as drinking for that matter . They were  supporting me and making me feel good. Fortunately I had so many drinks :P to count in the form of friends who actually overshadowed betrayl over affection . This helps getting a life ...I guess from here on I cultivated this habit of full order repeat :)  in pubs I enjoy . 

I was a kid who had had just lost his love . No matter what who says that goes , the bygone always persisted in illusion .  And this illusion illustrated itself into wallow in wail. Yeah after the dringking in dark , next phase post break up definitely reaches out loud in the form of taking pleasure in sadness .I kept thinking of her , at my home , in Blore , in Pune and no matter what story I have been told but to my illusion it was standing straight befriending me with the fact ...true love never dies ,which actually never did . It curtailed few emotions though on which I will come later . Talking about wallow in wail...it all starts with mesmerizing beautiful moments , recounting memorable ones zillon times a day , smiling alone whilst dreaming about her/him...and surprisingly one tends to analyse each and every single move , every expression, every word and every sense panorama has got . Its a phase of analysis , a phase of knowing each other more , ironically sitting alone and thinking gives you all the answers which you may have not idolised or reacted to or observed in relationship . A phase where you care for not being love of life but in terms of gestures more of humane. I remember C fell ill when she herself decided to call it off . I never gave it a thought unless I took pleasure in reminscing her mood swings recalling this one in the form ...how beautiful she was looking even she wasnt well that day.But something stupid I made my way with that moment was ...she was not well and I was shouting ...how mean was I . I should have have taken a mature way to make her feel better . These things doesnt come instaneously but time bless you with such a thinking , and as Murpheys law states , this happens only when things go out of hand . 

Well , feel flirt the third and last lable under this banner makes you really smart . You gear up with the best of pick up accent assimilate a lot tricks about bonding  at lightening pace and hit it . And as I was talking about curtailment of few emotions ...you actually observe that the very emotion that has made you feel so brilliant in the first one you ever hadhas gone . And that proves ...why u always cherish your first kiss, first hug and so on ...I dont know I never felt the same warmth I had while holding hand . I now feel as if I am holding a stick to make the stick cross road for formality :) .I dont see my hands sweat holding a rose anymore...I dont even remember whether I held any in last few years though. I dont run now if am late . Doesn't mean I didnt get any but the first fling actually makes you a man. I was Raymonds man by the mid of 2004 and ever since I had been splendid in bonding market , quite bullish :) . 

I could hardly make any speeches but fond of being called Love Guru. I just presume life full of rough patches is good to grow . It makes you mature , makes you rationale towards relationship and your very own ambitions . It takes a lot of time coping with lathargy injected in you with those bye bye ...bye gones ...but I will suggest to keep your brain not on rest for something you had lost control of ...instead get going for all other million reasons to smile . 

Please read the topic once again(thats the concluding line) [:)] .

My invisible soul mate

Sometimes life doesn't give you second chance to amend your decisions . Sometimes right decision seems the worst judgement . Sometimes selfless love seems quite a wrong approach and sometimes a smile revives you more than a chapter of laughter .

Yes I have been living with this invisible soul-mate who has shaped a painter , or a blogger or a poet out of me. I turned into a traveller so that I could tell her my adventures . I read books so that I can have her by my side ...touchingly closer to me ...over stories over nights . I could mesmerize her moves , the way she play with her hair, make her eyes big and squint on doubts ,smile when I joke, frown when I tease...its so touching , and I am so moved..I just never wanted to let her go..and hence I encapsualted her into a form that could always be with me ...no one coud see it , no one could take it ..and I can feel it . ..always holding my hands..with me ...helping me breath...with smile and joy splashed on my face ...its a moment of life and I dont wanna split with space . Its the valentines day today and I dont have any regrets for being apparently alone, nor I have any excitement , nor am I am trying to come out as date of million hotbod out there . I am just contended . Just passing the most seductive smile to very much mine , my invisible soul mate .I am calm and composed coz she likes me this way, I sing and see her giggles, I dance to make her laugh, I sleep in rabbit pose , so she could synchronize . I have to stretch my arms to make the romantic breeze in pinkish Valentine sunset pass with ease so it could make mellow on those who need . I have warmth to heed and breed ...to my invisible soul mate who is so sweet :).

Happy Valentines Day . Thanks for being there .

Thought of this very dull day ...

An excerpt of Kanika's mail today that left my thought process go a little extra mile ... Here it goes ...

"Shall I proceed then with this…kuch angrezee n all sab sahee hai naa" .............. ???
I never spoke english in my school days though I was in a strict convent school .I mean it was all english medium but among students hindi was common and conversation with teachers or seniors never happened more than one line or so . Atleast not paragraphs .

First time when I actually started conversing in english was with Cherry and u guys may well imagine meri haalat kya rehti hogi . Later I had to be on call talking in english for min of 4-5 hrs a day . I was really bad and was embarassed . Lately...chatting continued and ultimately it helped me improve . But I still had to struggle with myself to frame better/presentable/correct sentence in runtime . Lately job and all, books and movies , parties and gals , tv and blog, all has helped me be presentable .

And now when anyone way better than me(Just like Kanu) asks for a look or something/guidance/help its a feeling I simply love . makes me feel so good .But why am I putting it in blog is ...somehow am little scared too...Am I really this worth ? Or am I taking advantage of my good rapport unconciously by dragging them like my subjects ?

... Please comment .

Do not try to decode females

It has been 7 years from my first fling and I am back to square one . Observation and thought process reach out to conclude few facts as per our beliefs where we say certainly this is it . But not when the superpowerful gal's mind comes in picture . 

Panorama of long historical facts have never proven anything that has depicted the weird reactions posed by gals and reasons behind it . Yes we all know why we are after them, drooling with our toungue almost dripping and eyes wide out as if it was our heart . But what makes us upset are their reactions, what happens in the spur of the moment is a mystery followed by darkness . No one knows why and if talked would be different next time in perhaps similar scenario. If life has a complacent essence imparted to keep them composed where is it when either of gender comes face to face . Why guys behave in similar fashion and females in 10 to the power 10 million . I am keeping 10 to power 10 million as max limit to the number of events where they react in a life (excluding reactions when they find some mirror) . 

Girls are the most beautiful creature happened to mankind . You know why they are stressing so much to save planet . Its just because its the only planet with gals . Now if we are not even 1% sure of what we have known is correct , whats the point in saving . So gals better be little transparent now on . Also gals come in wide variety , pretty , very pretty , talkative ,very talkative, mischievous, naughty, horny, innocent, cute , indian, firangi ..lol. For example as I personally like very talkative gals . Richa , Kanika and Joy happen to be my few very close friends who are gorgeous and extremely talkative . You know ironically what makes it really easy to talk to gals who are so talkative . Its just that you ve to periodically keep saying hmmm.. hmmm and nothing much . Unlike guys who ask How are you and expect something in reply :) . If Sachin hits a six I atleast do not expect question that reads something like ...Is my lip gloss too overdone ? Cmon, I could have considered such bent of mind worth ,if it would have been a query related to its taste . Fedrer Vs Nadal is not the time for break-up or break-up in the making talks . Gals why don't u understand . Kisses are not supposed to be asked in midst of client meetings and which dress to be worn for a walk tonite is not to be thought while I am on call with my mom . 

All such mindblowing actions definitely bring grin on our face , but if you ask me what could possibly make little hearts pop out with such cute/funny/stupid/adorable actions and reactions, I would say , they are programmed with mutliple nested loops. Sometimes turning into deadlocks . When they are in deadlock mode, they cry like a helpless baby ; and when in loop , they rule some hundred pair of legs doing rounds to every instruction asked to be executed asap. 

Also ,I ve keenly observed a part of female brain that actually works(sometimes) , It works best with jealousy. Something like we add mobil oil along with petrol to let our gaddi perform better . Now, On the contrary, if gals are beautiful and pure at heart why has God given fairer beings this brahmastra . You know because of J I am not able to meet million hot chicks out there who could have been my potential date-and-dine-mate somehow who happen to be best friends with my female friends .Dudette, you already have stolen attention and thats why I am talkin to you . If you wont give me space, how will I be able to figure out who is best among all . Atleast I have rights to choose best of lot for my present/future. I am not saying that you have fallen for me and getting possessive now , certainly which u haven't . Now when u havent allow a space for someone else who has compatibility with me , I am still single ...With a punch line 'No wonder why I am single yet ' ..am writing to every hot chick in orkut and no one accepts it ... 

A lot said and thought ...ultimately I will follow what Kanu has told me in different phase of life which I understood as a must-not-do and Joy dictated similar in her own words ...' do not try to decode gals ...they will get jealous and will defeat you '..Now on I will be myself , without expecting anything in lieu ..I would keep my professional smile face on top of my shoulder  thinking some miracle to let silver lining prevail for a moment and fetch me luck by chance .   

 

P.S - I have drifted from the topic . But I am liking it :) . Thanks for reading  

  

Do we see a shade of Obama in Rahul Gandhi ?

Obama Vs India's Obama up for discussion in Indiatimes excited me . So thought of having a closer look from my page . 

Rahul Gandhi a man from Royal family may has credentials of being royal throughout his life but looking back what he has actually achieved dwindles off effectively with a void . He studied in many honored colleges and enrolled into most famous universities but was taken back or shifted to different ones in a chain of game that Gandhi family quote as security threats .

Alright, I may consider it ...keeping in my mind most of the politicians are illiterate or almost illiterate but could be a good leader . Its within ..and atleast an illiterate good leader can have vision to mobilize adept resources at apt places . I never could figure out why Gandhi family has to take each and everything to start and end in Amethi. Yes, I do know its their constituency , but Gandhi if taken in right manner is not a family . Its a brand in indian politics . Even prime minister of India is her magesty's minister . Then why in a country of over billion people he has to fight for elections or market themselves from a town with less than 200K people . Is something wrong with confidence . Or is there a serious problem , I think if for a matter LK Advani , Sheila Dikshit , Bal Thakrey and Rahul Gandhi fight for a consituency of Delhi /Bomaby or even Chennei. My personal belief says Rahul Gandhi will still have an edge being a bigger brand . Being more known to common people . Then why Amethi ?

This simple fact let me conclude one thing for sure , Obama is a man of masses . He doesnt differentiate among the man from his region . RG on contrary has so far distinguished Amethi with the rest of the world .He doesnt even have a courage to address nation . If he is a leader of tomorrows India then he should look into the cause, problems developement of whole nation . He should look into security which has been revealed as weakest, he should make development happen at a pace like never before, whats the use of building a dam in 15 years when we need it urgently now . If not work on it atleast analyse . Obama has aspirations to be 'The leader of globe' , RG is still fighting for Amethi, even that is not working out . He is like a struggler in a bhojpuri film..someone who thinks taking rides in white armoured Ambassador right from childhood itself mark a fact that he is next PM ...unknown to the fact that the driver was also driving the same royal car and is still a driver .  

So from my side , RG is an inept one as a national leader . He may suit as an MLA(I give him seeded player respect here ) not even MP . PM is a cry I believe India  would not be able to witness unless some miracle happen and Professionals Party of India come in picture .  

In pursuit of gigantic TRP

Sunny day, Sunday 1230 hrs Tazi gave me call , asking me immediately to tune into Mtv Roadies which was being broadcasted . Roadie...uff...huh...alright ...but for you to know my take on Roadie... I was in the awe of Roadies for not to see it ever since Bani made a real-public vamp role model out of the show. She was a perfect bitch I can name ...poor gal still comes second to my 1st gf . 

For all like me , who do not get much time or opportunity to see TV , MTV Roadies is a reality show to nurture and bring fame to real stud/diva from the society . Its a competition, its a fight, a battle one against the other in a team, a game of team but with ur own potential of strength mostly in mind , its a contest to figure out the most deteremined, strongest cranium, emotionless being and the one who only knows to win in extreme conditions . Well , sounds good and I did like the concept . I really looked upto Raghu, creator of the show , thought he is divine in the world of creativity . But it has been deviated from Roadies 1.0 to 6.0. It all started with 'The Champ/Babe' thought and has so far flung into biggest 'The Chu****/Bitch' fame . It has gone so low that I really doubt any mom and dad of the country would ever like to watch it even for the sake of their own kids who ve participated .

I doubt but what keeps me ponder for one whole day and now punch these keys is more interesting and stinking . The Raghu who unfortunately could not be Romeo has no creativity .Just like Anu Malik the ace composer he could only get inspired . Little by Survivor and little by Fear factor and some more which may be getting broadcasted in non English/ Hindi countries . 

The Jack ass in this race to grab most eye balls and talk of the town came up with something that could mark history in the world of  reality TV show . Hitting guys on the balls . I wonder has he ever played cricket or ever being ragged, has he ever rode cycle or played hockey . Or he just could be one of those with correspondence theories in his career . What a fuckin looser he is . Imagine a flick of a finger causes so much of pain there and he conceptualizes an episode where the balls of boys were taken into account for the part of excitement for a fuckin piece of over all TRP game. Its unethical in Boxing , kick boxing and free style wrestling irrespective of the fact that those wrestlers were trained for 3-7 years for the same thing ie getting beaten . 

Aaah...I feel so pity for the poor boys and those foolish/idiot/illiterate bitches who were supposed to ans silly questions and the design of the game facilitates atleast one guy to screw up bigtime with a hammer on his thing . I wonder next time Raghu the ass would be asking to sit on a bottle. Has Mtv got out of senses . Isn't there anyone above him in creative dept of the channel or all of them has never fun-wrestled with even little kids  . I doubt bigtime they could be chess grandmasters . They could only be spectators  who eat burger and drink beer uttering Yankees and Bulls across their LCD . 

Let me take you one step back and make you familiar with Roadies audition . It was interesting ..earlier . But somehow I could not figure out what they actually wanna bring up in terms of selection . I remember in one of the auditions they ve selected a guy from Noida or Delhi who kept writing and re writing , insisting and re-insisting that he is 'the Roadie' ...self proclaimed one and he could forsee it ...as if he is not 'The Roadie' but 'The Oracle', and what makes him think so was that his dad is in army and he has it in genes. Earlier I laughed at him followed by Raghu and Nikhil , later he was selected . What was that . Has he bribed Nikhil/Raghu . What made them choose him . Something ...something that makes me feel so confused like I am drinking Old Monk diluted with Fanta with my eyes closed .  Let me ask you a quick question. Presuming you are all burly with an iq of 150+ . You walk in and Raghu insults you on TV . By TV I mean on national telelevision . By insult I mean verbal rape . How are you going to react . The most eligible for the game would tightly slap him on his face hard enough to get him rid of those marks in min a week . But somehow humble indians , polite indians and target participants who fall in age group of from 17 to 20 yr old restrict themselves from doing this . May be they get so nervous and out of place that they feel like just going out of the room rather than descending their angst into action . But ...I would call it elevating with pride which they fail to understand being so young . 

I am deeply dissapointed and upset with the kind of reality show coming up for nexgen . Are they going to be strong and smart or Roadie . From a journey of 1.0 to 6.0 Roadie has travelled a journey from Randy Savage to Rowdy from garbage .  I miss Mile sur mera tumhara...and mogli. Those ve given us good time and entertainment . Roadies to nexgen are as harmful as bathing in backwater of a sugar mill . I would be saddest ...if someday my daughter  come home and say fuck u dad and get out of my way ...which she would mean , dad, I wanna play and not study .